Changes

*Picture taken by my boy!*

To every thing there is a season, and a time to every purpose under the heaven:

A time to be born, and a time to die; a time to plant, and a time to pluck up that which is planted;

A time to kill, and a time to heal; a time to break down, and a time to build up;

A time to weep, and a time to laugh; a time to mourn, and a time to dance;

A time to cast away stones, and a time to gather stones together; a time to embrace, and a time to refrain from embracing;

A time to get, and a time to lose; a time to keep, and a time to cast away;

A time to rend, and a time to sew; a time to keep silence, and a time to speak;

A time to love, and a time to hate; a time of war, and a time of peace.

What profit has he that works in that wherein he labors?

I have seen the travail, which God has given to the sons of men to be exercised in it.

He has made every thing beautiful in his time...

Ecclesiastes 3
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music: The Byrds - Turn! Turn! Turn!

Hey there, everyone! It's been a long time since I've posted, I know.

God's been making some changes in me lately. Where to even start? *sigh* I just don't know. Maybe if I just scratch the surface a little...

In a nutshell, I've been doing too much. It's not my usual day-to-day routine that's over the top. It's all the extra stuff I've tried to make priority in my life that's pushed me over the edge into too much busyness, stress, and exhaustion.

The thing is, I'm so careful about what I take on. I'm not someone who enjoys running out the door and being on the go all the time. Taking care of the kids and household are the most important things to me, other than my relationships with God and my husband. I guess I've questioned whether what I do here is *enough*. I'm so type A, I have a huge tendency to push too hard and not know where to draw the line.

I know you know how it is. It's not that we all have trouble with taking on silly stuff that robs our time and our peace. No, it's the stuff that *seems* so important; the stuff that has real merit and value and would actually add to our lives, but in actuality, unless God specifically calls us to it, drains us and leaves us feeling depleted and like we're spinning our wheels but going nowhere. It's this kind of thing I've fallen for time and again, feeling like I *must* if I'm going to be the best wife and mom I can be. But every time, I wind up tired and feeling defeated because I just can't hold it all together.

Well, it's taken a long time, but I've finally gotten the message. Wish I'd caught on sooner, but I'm sure God knew I'd have to run allll the way to the end of this highway and hit the wall or I'd keep feeling like I was somehow not doing enough. My curiosity and wonderings have been satisfied. I and the wall are now acquainted. It's the end of the road for this girl.

So, back to really only focusing on what's most important. I know my daily life isn't all that exciting on paper, but it's what floats my boat. And lo and behold, it's just what I'm called to, and that makes me happy.

With all of this said, I don't know the direction my blog is going to take. I hope you don't mind. I think I'll just play each day by ear rather than trying to force a theme or follow a certain format. I've had so much fun with my blog to this point, but it's also been more time consuming than it maybe appears. Could be that I'm not great at this whole blogging thing, and I can accept that. hehe! I don't know. I do like talking and journaling, so that part is easy. As for the daily themes and all the extra stuff, those things will probably follow my moods. We'll see.

Love you all!